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Mixed poke bowl with seaweed salad and pineapple.

I have an autoimmune disease that causes brain inflammation and insane chronic pain. I left my job as a cake decorator because my tremors/pain make it really hard to work, and figured I’d go back to an HR position (what I got my degree in).

After HUNDREDS of applications, I finally land an interview for an incredible opportunity. Today was the 3rd round over Zoom. I’ve been flaring the last few days, and the brain fog is thick, so I studied my notes for my presentation for three hours before the interview. Logged in, met the 7 executives I’d be working with, started the presentation, and had a full blown panic attack on camera.

I was stuttering so badly I couldn’t make a coherent sentence, threw out “I’m so sorry that wasn’t clear I’m doing my best”, heard how pathetic that sounded and SHUT THE LAPTOP.

Never once have I ever panicked before or during an interview. I’m absolutely mortified. Horrified. The world is ending. I have been waiting months, MONTHS, for an opportunity like this and I absolutely obliterated it.

The poke is usually my favorite but I’m so nauseas I can’t finish it.

ETA: you guys are the absolute best and sweetest. The company called back to reschedule for later this week 🥲