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For context, there was a guy I was seeing who was a dom. We weren’t dating, but we would play every two weeks or so. Things were going well, though I had some of my own reservations come up recently that I had planned to talk to him about. Otherwise, things seemed to be going well.

He called and ended things today. He said he can’t play with me anymore because I’m trans, and he’s reevaluating his orientation. (Whatever that means, I’m a woman damnit) He had previously told me and reassured me that he found me attractive and loved playing with me. I’m not sure when this started, I didn’t ask. He gave a specific reason, but it’s too personal to share here and is way too painful to mentally revisit.

Kink means a lot to me, it fulfills me in ways I can’t describe. But I have to take a break. I had a scene planned with some else at the upcoming party this month and I can’t keep that anymore. I feel like he violated my trust by saying one thing, and doing another.

The worst part is he was still hoping I would sponsor him to the party, so he can go find someone else to hurt. I can’t in god conscience allow him around the people and place (the venue) that I hold so dear.

There were a few red flags I was willing to deal with because I’m too damn forgiving. So I guess it’s my fault.

Anyways, cold Pizza Hut because I thought I started the microwave but apparently I hadn’t. Mint herbal tea to drink.