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just wanted to rant abt how my brains been recently

I’m a new mom 4 months post partum and life just kinda hit me like a truck. I didn’t really acknowledge that I was like yk alive til I was 21 LMAO so once I realized living life was actually an option I was immediately stressed out. Tried school, MULTIPLE different majors, nothing stuck, student debt, no credit cards or income so debt started my credit history:) met my current boyfriend, got pregnant(one missed bc dose btw), now just sitting here again trying to figure out what to do when to do it if there’s a “right time” all the fun stuff.

I guess I just wanna be a mom to be looked up too? But also be my own person and idk how to do both. I love my boys without a doubt, I just also want to feel like I love myself too. Idk how to put these feelings into words

I also gained a ton of weight after losing a ton before I was pregnant and it’s been SO HARD losing it especially cus I’m still trying to figure out wen to eat cus my son does not nap unless he’s right on top of me so whenever I do eat it’s binging

Just a girl looking for some guidance maybe a hug and someone to tell me I’m not alone

Dinner was Carne Guisado 🙂 <3