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I came back from vacation with my mom to a dirty house and a sink full of dishes and my guitar missing. My dad in his bed watching youtube not sober. He asked me for money during the vacation but he still hasn't payed me back for the 1,000 I did let him borrow so I said no and he said he would figure it out. He sold my guitar that I payed for and im heartbroken. He cant take any accountability. I lost my job and I stupidly gave all my savings to my parents because I live with them and I wanted to help. I feel vulnerable because he has done things to me and has not seemed apologetic in the slightest. I dont think the police would care about my stolen guitar and I feel defeated I moved states and left my friends and family hoping to get him help and he just lies and I dont have any respect for him anymore even though I know hes sick.

I have a fear of driving so I cried thinking about now I have no choice but to learn if I want to leave. And I dont know how to be self sufficient when everything is so expensive and I dont know where to start learning about how to be an adult. Its so hard trying to stay strong and move forward.I wish I was a jellyfish with no brain just floating in the ocean.

(Dinner is alfredo bowtie pasta with chicken)