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An ex reached out to me recently. A (mostly) good ex. I don’t really know who he is these days, but he’s still unfathomably good looking. I’m not often attracted to men either, but he is…beautiful. He’s also relatively successful, skilled, athletic, and comes from a great family, which is a plus.

When we dated, I broke things off after about 2 months because it felt like things had gone cold. I was still very much in love, but didn’t feel like it was mutual, and wanted to end things before I got any deeper into the delusion basically.

I told him how I felt and he confirmed that he had lost feelings, and that was the end of it.

So here we are, a few years later, and he reaches out to me late one night with a message asking how I’m doing, and if I’m still living in the same city.

But his messages came in so late that my replies would be sent the following day. Then I’d hear back from him again late… This timing kind of disappointed me right off the bat, because I expected us to start texting and catching up right away? Instead, it was just brief messages about wanting to set up a date. I held on to my optimism thinking maybe he didn’t want to text so that we could really spend time catching up in person, since it’s been so long.

We eventually set the date, after a few days of this day and night text back and forth — but no time. On the day of the date, he reaches out and asks what kind of plans I’d be up for (lunch, drinks etc). I left the ball in his court. He reaches out later on and postpones the date, and then cancels at the end of the day. I kind of had a feeling it would be canceled since he never set a time, but the whole situation just felt odd. When he canceled, he said he really wanted to reschedule and would reach out again.

So, now he’s reached out again…same thing, the late night message. It’s like a pattern at this point, and it kills me because I would love to take this man seriously and give this a real chance, but I also want to respect MYSELF and have standards. I haven’t even responded because it almost feels embarrassing that I’m still willing and eager to see him despite him being wishy-washy and blowing me off once already.

Is it even worth it?! Like, imagine the most gorgeous man and the best d*ck of your life, but he’s kind of hot and cold and it feels like a humiliation ritual to date him. Would you try again? 🙈 /s but not /s

american breakfast for dinner 🥘