Breakfast at the local greasy spoon because I threw up earlier and I should have some calories idk. It's an omlette, theres a pancake somewhere around here.
Apologies for sharing a distressing story but I unfortunately dont have any friends or family nearby.
I took a job recently which is pretty remote/rural, so housing is provided for employees. Things were going pretty well until a new hire came in (we can call him James). James moved into the house where I was living. I made it about a month having him as a housemate before I went to HR. James repeatedly shoved his way into my bedroom, used my towels and bathroom products, took a video of me speaking on his phone without my knowledge or consent, walked around in front of me nude, lounged around in only boxers with his dick tip sticking out….I started spending less and less and less time at my house, as little as possible. I was so deeply uncomfortable being in his orbit; something about him turned my skin itchy and made me feel nervous, eventually panicky afraid. He seemed clever and bored and found my discomfort humorous. I had the impression that something was deeply wrong with James and only wanted to get myself as far away from him as possible, as much as I could. Colloquially, other women at work held the same set of sentiments I did and largely were uncomfortable around him.
Sociopathy? Just a predatory creep? His eyes were vacant.
I went to hr with all of this earlier in the week. James was fired on Friday evening. He also lost his housing.
James hung himself in the restaurant of my workplace yesterday. He waited until the staff was eating lunch and excused himself..he was found about 20mins later.
I am hysterically distressed and have absolutely no idea how to process. I dont necessarily need advice and I really dont need to hear about how im not guilty for this. I just needed a diary and a safe space to throw up some words. I want to leave my workplace but I am living and working where I want to be…and dont really have the cash to put myself back on the road. It is a terrible situation. He was a total fuckin deeply unhealthy creep who scared me on a fundamental woman level, but somewhere out there he has a mom, you know?