It’s my ex’s birthday today and I need someone to tell me to not reach out to him. We didn’t end well and I miss him that I wanna know if he’s OK, but I can’t compromise my mental health and I just need someone to tell me no.
EDIT: I have decided to take myself on a museum date. I have dressed up done my make up and have made reservations at a local restaurant. He is forever in my past and no, I did not text him.
The picture is of homemade savory porridge
Tonkotsu ramen (I can’t spell for shit)
Seems odd to post smth like this here but I can’t think of anywhere else to lol so here goes:
im a lover of all forms of life. I love bugs, animals, fish, etc. I can’t bring myself to dislike any of the world’s critters. Even when they’re severely invasive… today my mom called me to deal with a critter on the porch (as is my “job” lol) and I find out it’s an invasive species of beetle. It’s clearly on its last legs so I try to sit with it while it dies. While I do that, I also do some research on its species, learn its invasive, and how to deal with them. Almost every article I read about this adorable little beetle is saying the kindest way to euthanize it is to put it in a freezer… so I do that and I just feel so bad about it because it’s the reality of nature that when an invasive species is found, you have to get rid of it in some way. I want to love all animals and bugs no matter how much damage they may cause to an ecosystem but I can’t bring myself to cause any life form any kind of harm. But I have to… if I’m going to be an animal conservationist I have to deal with the fact that (as much as I hate saying something like this) not all animals are equal depending on location… it’s a love and hate relationship
A friend then informed me that putting a bug in the freezer is actually a bad way to euthanize it bc it shuts down its organs slowly. So I felt even worse about it after learning that…
I feel things so deeply and it’s very much so a blessing/curse situation