23F and first time poster here. I ended my relationship with ex partner 26M a little more than 1 month ago. He was the first person that I actually fell in love with mutually, though I had many crushes and 1 LTR in the past. We were together for 6 months, and the relationship itself was toxic. I know he wasn’t the best for me and I don’t regret my decision (we had some major issues). But we also had amazing chemistry and even more perfect sex. It was just like magic and fireworks. I absolutely loved his body, his touch, his voice. We also used to experiment a lot, and I loved how vulnerable he could be with me. I still fantasise a lot about those precious moments (I know it’s unhealthy).
He claimed that I was the first person who made him feel this way, and I do believe it. He was also the first big love for me. And I’m so afraid that noone will ever love me like he did, and that I won’t meet anyone with whom I would be that compatible sexually. I know, I’m still young, but it feels impossible now, and it makes me miss him even more 🙁
food: cottage cheese with sour cream and blueberries 🫐