I have never felt so unattractive and unloved by my own standards. Growing up I was not a pretty and cute girl which made a lot of damage on how I saw myself. However I had a huge glow up on my young adult years which completely changed how people treated me and by my own fault I got attached to the idea of “being attractive”.
Fast forward now during the pregnancy, I am up 40lbs and I dont feel like a person anymore, I dont feel I have an individual worth anymore.
I’m just a pregnant body, and I hate it so much. I can see and feel how the dynamic in my relationship changed and I feel so unattractive it hurts. I cant even complain about lack of sex because I dont feel I am attractive enough for it and I am honestly scared of touching the subject and finding out things I dont want to find out. It just hurts, I wasn’t ready mentally and emotionally for this lack of worth I am putting on myself.