Sooo I've been sluttin it up for the past month, new dude every night, getting ghosted left and right, the usual Hinge fuckboys. WELL. The other day I was sooo bored after a nightmare date and I saw a dude that was hot, my type, with a thoughtful bio, and just sent him a "hey, you're hot and i like your bio" message. We ended up talking on the phone and getting really flirtatious really fast. I was like "hey, you wanna come over?" which I'd normally never do but he sounded so safe and so… idk how to describe it. I just knew I needed to see him. But anyway, he came over and within 15 mins we had the best sex I've ever had that lasted 5 hours!! He was the perfect mix of gentle and rough, and so careful about my boundaries, safety, and comfort. We've been nonstop texting since.
I had a date with someone else already planned for later in the week, so I went to that one. The guy was super nice and cool, but the whole time I was like "he's nothing like (dude I'm crushing on). There's no spark here." I'm gonna try to let him down easy and he's a great dude so I'm def sending single chicks his way.
Fast forward to today, the hot crush came over. We were in the throes of passion for literally 5 straight hours. Back to back, no breaks, curled up around each other. 🥺 My goal was to drain him of his life force, and I succeeded in this goal. We took a shower after and we just kept staring into each other's eyes, and the whole time he was late for something, but neither of us wanted to stop making out and giggling in the shower. I kissed him goodbye and he said I was the best he'd ever had, that he almost passed out when I was doing that thing I did (it's true, his soul left his body for a minute, i could tell). He said that I'm perfection, that he's enamored by me, that even though neither of us are seeking a serious relationship just yet, we want it to be with each other. You guys, he's so fucking hot. And ripped. And rich. And I was making a joke about flying me out to Bali and he was like "okay yeah, go get a passport and I will." And now he's texting me after to tell me how mindblowing I was.
And listen, I know I'm not supposed to get my hopes up because usually dudes ghost me after sex, but he just feels so safe and secure. And he said he takes that responsibility seriously and wants to create a space that is so safe that I feel like I can be myself. I've only ever been in extremely abusive relationships, and this is not that. This dude is it, I think. I hope it works out, and he does too. I'm very happy. 🙂
Dinner is some steaks I made since I told him I could cook hehe.
update: he feels the same way. and hes been spending all of his free time with meeeee AHHH