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I found out that I was pregnant a week ago and we couldn’t be more thrilled! I quit weed the day after finding out. We both had been wanting to quit weed for a while, and my husband decided to quit in solidarity with me the same day. We’ve been smoking regularly for 8-ish years, mostly just flower. I smoked 4-5x per week when I wasn’t working. Just a few small hits from the pipe at night, and I was good. My husband smoked bowls daily from the time he got off of work until he went to sleep. I recognize that quitting is easier for me due to the psychology of wanting to grow a healthy baby, and my usage was less than his. Likewise, I know that quitting is harder for him because of his heavier usage and lack of attachment to the baby (yet). He has not been having an easy time with it.

But our marriage is a war zone right now. I know that I’m more sensitive and hormonal than usual, but I’m having a hard time supporting my husband with his new emotional outbursts and temper. He’s brought me to tears multiple times with the way that he’s spoken to me and taken small conflicts from 0-100. It’s so unlike him. He’s also being short with our pets, especially our dog. I’m trying to give us both grace; I know this is a difficult season for us both physically and mentally. But part of me worries that this is the real him, and that the weed was just masking this part of his personality the whole time. We have a road trip/vacation starting tomorrow, and I’m scared that we’ll be fighting the whole time.

Dinner is cinnamon Life and a key lime La Croix.