Repost because I forgot the picture, oops. Avocado toast with a fried egg on top.
My mom sucks, always has and always will. I have no choice but to live with my parents right now since I had nowhere else to go after my baby daddy cheated on me, so I’m here with my almost two year old. Kind of wish I just stayed with her dad.
She’s been horrible my whole life. She’s given me plenty of trauma and not noticed when other traumatic things happened to me under her roof. Now living with her just triggers everything and I have to stop myself from exploding all my frustration onto her. All the stupid, rude little comments she makes all the time, not realizing what a good life she has and never being happy with anything. She never does anything but sit on the couch and scroll, she makes dinner maybe once a week and is mad about it the whole time. She treats my dad like shit. She makes backhanded comments about how she has to smoke outside now because my toddler lives here and I won’t let her smoke inside. Fuck me for that I guess.
I want out. I’m 32 years old and living with my parents with no end in sight. I was a SAHM before and have no childcare, so I just got a job at a school working with toddlers so my daughter can go for half off tuition, but it’s still $445 off my check every month and I only make $13 an hour. Then there’s week long breaks from school that are unpaid, so my check for this month (we get paid monthly) was only $840. I’m going to try my best to get an apartment in a year or so but it’s going to be a stretch. I really like this job but I’m used to making like $500-600 a week.
My baby daddy can’t keep a job either. He gives me money when he has a job but obviously he can’t when he’s unemployed. I don’t want to take him out for child support because we get along well and I don’t want him to resent me, plus if he doesn’t have the money it’ll just go into back pay and I’ll probably never get it anyway. I just feel so stuck. I hate how expensive everything is. This is not how I thought motherhood would go. I’m a planner and I didn’t plan for being cheated on. Sorry for the rant.