We have 2 kids, he had an affair when I was pregnant with our first and I only found out when the second was 2 years old. He probably cheated a bunch more, including with a 19 year old when he was 34 (we're 30 and 39 now), even though he denies it and says he made that up to "impress" his friend.
For years we've (read: I've) tried to look past it and work it out and for a while I thought I could do it, but obviously not. Problem is he's unbearable when we're not in that work it out phase, he gets so fucking grumpy and makes me wanna slap the silly out of him.
At the moment I've been trying to fake it again because it's really the only way to have a somewhat good vibe at home, but man do I hate him. I have to hold my breath when he kisses me.
Current housing situation is very tricky so I can't really leave.
Eggs Benedict on smoked salmon toast.