Shrimp bibimbap from a local restaurant 🙂
Throughout high school, I’ve always been chatty. I participate in class discussions, talk to my seat mates, and try to act as a friend to everyone, even people I don’t know. In my classes, people seem to like me, but nobody talks to me on their own volition.
Now I’m a rising senior, and I still don’t have anyone. I thought I made a group of friends, but I always have to be the person to initiate conversation and nobody ever responds. I have nothing to do this summer and since I have nobody to go out with, I’ve gone out of my house like once per week. It just really hurts seeing everyone else with friends while nobody gives a shit about me.
It’s just really discouraging seeing people talk in the time between classes, while I sit there like a buffoon because I have nothing to do. The only time people will ever talk to me is when they need help with schoolwork or something else. There was this one time in my French class where we had free time for the whole period, and nobody bothered to talk to me except for one person asking for a sticky note. I have never had sticky notes. I don’t know why she would think i have a sticky note. It just feels dehumanizing.
So uh yeah idk if I’m annoying and thats why nobody talks to me, or what. I just want someone to want to talk with me as much as I want to talk to them. :p