Dinner is pasta & bread with Brussels and berries
TLDR back story: Got out of a traumatic, toxic relationship over a year ago now and have struggled to experience attraction, attachment, romantic/sexual desire ever since. Got back into dating Jan – Feb 2026 and then immediately took a 6 month break from dating since. I feel I now have stronger boundaries, more certainty about what i want and started dating again in the last few weeks. Just for fun.
Went on a new date today.
The man has no gentlemanliness at all. Kinda dumb, uses too much profanity for his age, seems like a weak/uninvolved father, feels a little old for me.
On the surface he looked put together and like a decent option as a business owner and dad, and he had really articulate, solid text messages/sounded intelligent. But I feel like I could see what he was like when he was 21 very clearly in his personality today. 😬 ick
Life’s questions:
Will I ever experience attraction again?
How long is it going to take me to give dating another chance, this time?
Am I going to be alone forever?
Do I even care if I’m alone forever? I’m slowly learning to prefer it
Idk why, it always feels really heavy when I try a date and simply am not attracted to the guy. It sucks.