It’s currently 4:30am & I am holding my sleeping 3 week old in complete awe of what I carried and created. I spent 9 months imagining what this moment would feel like but nothing could’ve prepared me for the reality of it.
I had a very smooth pregnancy but the week leading up to her birth, I suddenly got severe preeclampsia. This is my first baby so needless to say I was already afraid of giving birth to her but add in the complications & I was terrified…
I remember clinging to my partner and crying telling him how scared I was, burying my face in his arms to hide the fact that I felt so unsteady.
But holding her in my arms now, I’ve never felt more sure of anything in my life. The fear I felt then doesn’t even come close to the Love I feel now. I feel like at any moment I could just burst wide open with all that I feel for her. God is so amazing in his creations. I never knew I could feel like this. I am so in Love.