Update (4 hrs after post): hi chat. I’ve come to my senses. I had posted this when my emotions were still clouded and barely 10 hrs had passed since him telling me. I was able to leave my house this afternoon and reflect and decided that I am pretty and a catch so I’m not fighting for a man’s attention, especially one that had sex with someone else. We never talked fully about being monogamous to each other but with our conversations I thought it was very obvious. That’s something I’ll address in the future with men. I feel icky. I don’t like the idea of him ignoring me and choosing to sleep with someone else and her probably never knowing there was someone else in his mind. At the end of the day, if he needed to release some tension, he could’ve easily went home and took care of himself. He’s blocked. I’m a sad girl but I move on.
Edit (1 hr after post): yall were fast with this one. When my girlfriends are having situations like this, I am the one to shake them to get back to earth. Why am I so stupid right now?? The d was too good I’ve lost my senses please bring me back to earth
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I know I’m being a stupid girl but my brain can’t compute lol.
I had a great connection with a man who lived the state over from me. We’ve been talking for over a month now and we met up multiple times, went on dates and slept together every time we saw each other. In the beginning, we texted a lot and it was great. He was constantly reassuring me how much he enjoyed my company.
Around the end of June he wouldn’t be on his phone for days since he works outdoors and spends a lot of time outside being active with his friends. (Not married, no double life). We weren’t exclusive, but I thought it seemed to get serious.
But recently, he’s been a little more MIA and we weren’t texting much…. Yesterday he contacted me after a 3 day non responsive stint and told me he slept with someone LOL. Immediately I felt like my avoidant behaviors were coming out…. We talked a little longer because I wanted to get this anger out of my system. He told me multiple times how he thought of me when he was with her, and how he had wished it was me, etc. Last night I felt like my emotions were a rollercoaster and I’m not jealous anymore but I was insanely jealous last night. I’m just more pissed than anything. Do I keep myself in line and if I wanna keep seeing him and sleeping with him (the sex was great I thought lol) to keep it surface level now? Or do I give him an ultimatum? He said he normally would never sleep with someone else while talking with someone but now I’m just confused. Annoying way to start my Sunday
Meal: bread, butter and Gouda