ended a 5+ year relationship yesterday. expected things to go worse but they're just sad and confused instead. tears this morning. probably blown up half our social circle because of mutual friends in common taking sides, although no one's done anything wrong to take sides over, i think. the love just isn't there for me anymore and hasn't been for a while. I should have done this earlier and so it feels worse to have held on. moving out in about ten days.
huel bar and iced tea lunch, on the train to go visit family for the day. not really hungry for more.